Letting Go & Letting God

This past month has been quite a month to say the least. Ever since I decided to do this internship I have been attacked every which way NON STOP. For a stinking month, that gets ridiculously tiring and so hard. I wanted to quit so bad, just everything. Trying to live a life of integrity while constantly being attacked is brutal. But it's a part of walking the walk.

I had to look at it from the view point that obviously I'm doing the right thing otherwise Satan wouldn't be wasting his time with me. Which makes this internship that much more exciting. The feeling that you're on the right path that God has planned for you is the greatest feeling ever.

Stumbled upon Psalm 18:32 today: It is God who arms me with strength and makes my way perfect.

All we have to do is trust God and he literally holds us in His hands and carries us. It blows my mind why we ever try to do anything different than trusting Him.

I'm finally at a point where I'm not leaning on my own understanding, but all my trust is in Him. I have no clue what is going to come out of these next 10 months, but I know it's going to be forever life changing, and unforgettable. I wont ever be the same! Life is so much easier and enjoyable when we don't take thing into our own hands. I can finally breath, he's taken all my stress, sadness, and confusion. HE'S SUCH AN AMAZING GOD. His love for us is endless. So lucky to have a Father like Him.

So yay for growing in God, relationships, &myself.

blog shout out to: FIERCE DRAGON NIGHTT HOOOOAWWWK. :)

ALSO: INTERNSHIP STARTS TUESDAY, MOVING OUT MONDAY. holla.

PS.

This was suppose to be so much longer but I had to cut 100 ribbons for flippin crystaline so my brain stopped thinking. I'm too ADD to get back on the brain wave I was on when I started it.

THE FEAR OF THE LORD

He offered them beauty but by their own choice couldn't have it. 

"Drawing near to God always begins in a heart that fears and loves God more than anyone or anything else. It is not just outward actions, but the hearts motive."

NOTHING CAN STOP THE FAVORRRR OF THE LORDDDD -sorry it's just a Israel Houghton kind of day. And how can you just not help but blurt out his songs? Riiii?!

Man I'm having issues it's taken me like 30 minutes to write 4 sentences. Yikes! k game face:

All of this and really the purpose of this blog is coming from reading "Drawing Near" by John Bevere, and the chapter about the fear of the Lord was legit, and I wanted to share my thoughts mixed with what he writes about, so here goes...

You will not be all that God has created you for and you will not reach all that God has destined for you if you do not have the fear of the Lord. 

There are tons of Christians out there who are saved and claim God as their Lord and Savior, but they don't fear a God who is to be feared and revered as holy. God is not on the same level as us. He can take as fast as he gives. We serve an all-knowing, all-powerful God. The maker of Heaven and Earth. Alpha and Omega. He was and is! We serve a living God that is to be honored with the utmost respect. A God who bore a sinners cross, died to save us when we were undeserving, but rose again, and reigns! How can you not fear our God! "God says no one can draw near by holding him in light esteem or regarding Him as common."

I think sometimes we take our salvation lightly. We accept God, we claim Him as God, but we don't live our lives as if we were living for God. "The root of sin is the lack of the fear of the Lord." Our God is a forgiving God, but everyone will be judged according to our actions, good or bad. "It is not the love of God that keeps us from sin, but the fear of the Lord."  "Let us cleans ourselves from all filthiness of the flesh and spirit, perfecting holiness in the fear of God." (2 Cor. 7:1)

"God shares his secrets with those who have His heart and have laid down their lives- those He calls friends." "Friendship with the Lord is reserved for those who fear him, with them he shares the secrets of His covenant." Psalm 25:14

"The fear of the Lord is the beginning or starting point for knowing God intimately." 

I don't live for an average God, I live for the only God worth living for. A God we owe our lives to. A God that loves us in our imperfection. A God that never leaves our side. Are you living for what you treat and see as an average God or are you living for the Lord of Lords and the King of Kings, the living God. 

This is what's up:

Hi friends :)

So I had decided a few weeks ago that during the internship I was totally going to start blogging. But then I saw Danielle Cohens blog, and I was like HEY why not start now?? 

That's all my brain is, thoughts. I've got such a preachers mind. When I see or read something I'm always thinking how can I apply that to my life, or someone else's life, or this could totally be a great sermon. So anyways my point is that I'm going to start writing all these things so maybe someone will read it and be radically changed :) or just enjoy my witty blogs, or just give me something to do. THAT'S RIGHT. 

(agh! my heart keeps doing this freaky thing like beating weird but it feels like someone is in my heart and hitting something against my ribs because it's hard and loud) 

I have SO much that I could totally write about right now, but I'm not going to yet. (Um my dad is watching some asian guy like sing... he's in the band journey or something... just odd...AHH just saw a girl flash the band or crowd, dang rockers)

I'll end in this, tomorrow: I'm going to see Christine Caine @ Shoreline. I am beyond excited, she is so amazing, and no doubt she is going to bring a great message. :)

Also tomorrow I will be blogggggging about: The fear of the Lord. Because that's what I just got done reading/studying and it's so vital to growing in your relationship with God. So I want to share. 

Love love love.

(watching astros game BOO I want rangers)